Kaibigan Pasindi Ulit

Kelan ka ba ulit dadaan? Naasar ka ba nung huli tayong mag-usap? Ikaw naman kasi---ba't ba napaka-sensitive mo pagdating sa bagay na yon? Kasalanan ko ba na apektado ka pa hanggang ngayon? Eh kasi naman... andali mong mag-fall. Wala kang pinipili. Ini-spoil mo kasi yang nasa dibdib mo. Lahat ng gusto at may gusto pinagbibigyan. Naku, di pwede ang ganyan. Minsan kailangan mong pumreno. Minsan, kailangang dumistansya. Di sa lahat ng pagkakataon naka-green light ka.

Nagulat lang kasi ako. Matagal na yon di ba? Hanggang ngayon ba naman? Bilib nga rin ako sa'yo. Siguro hindi pa talaga ako nagmahal nang ganyan, kaya tuloy puro warning shots ang binabato ko sa'yo. Pero lam mo, parang ayoko. Nakakatakot. Mas gusto ko yung ganito. Yung alam ko kung kelan ako kikilos; kung kelan ko ipaglalaban; at kung kelan ako bibitaw. Syempre, nasasaktan din ako. Pero di tulad mo, alam ko kung san yung weakness ng nananakit sa kin. Kaya sa bandang huli, di ako yung nagmumukhang dehado. Gusto mo swap tayo ng tricks? Ano?

Friend, daan ka naman ulit. Usap tayo. Promise, makikinig na lang ako.

Written Under the Rainfall 2

My friend,

Remember what I told you last time? You know, about crossing the line and everything? I did it.

I was surprised, though. Because when I stepped across it, you were there. A little shy and hesitant as expected, but you were really there. I was stunned because I had expected (and prepared myself) for a sudden, awkward fall. But seeing you on the other side have made that jump into a slow, gentle landing.

Why? Did I alarm you?

I'm scared to ask you how sure you are or how willing you are to take the risk. You might wake up and realize that we're in another level and you don't like it. That's why I've just held my peace and enjoyed the moment with you. I know--- you feel the same thing, the same fear. You don't need to say them. I can read your mind through your eyes, remember?

I'm not really sure what has crossed your mind, but I'm glad it happened. Let's hold on for this one.