Saturday, September 01, 2001

In Qualms

How are you?
How’s us?
Are you okay?
Are we okay?

I missed you.
I missed us.
Do you know that I’m scared?
Ive never been this scared before.

I trust you.
But I don’t trust us.
Not because of you.
But because of me.

You told me :“I LOVE YOU”.
I told you:“ I LOVE YOU MORE.”
You said “FOREVER”.
I said nothing.

I know you.
You say what you mean and you mean what you say.
But what if your FOREVER won’t be forever?
What if when I finally found the courage to say FOREVER, you’re gone?

I haven’t seen you lately.
I know you’ve been preoccupied with so many things.
And I'm not one of them.
I understand.

We haven’t talked much the last time you called.
You had a tough day.
You were tired.
I did nothing the whole day, but I FEEL TIRED.

You said: “love you, miss you.”
I said: “bye, goodnight.”

I’m scared.

Do I still miss you?
Do I still care if you called or not?
Do I still worry if I don’t know where you are?
Do I still think about you?

Sometimes I feel I wanted to go.
Yet I always choose to stay.
Sometimes I picture myself with someone.
Someone, but not you.

I’m scared.
Do I still love you?



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